I Want, But Can't Have

There are days, where I dream big.

While I am far from being deprived -- I have lots to be thankful for -- I own a house; drive a nice car; good friends; eat out frequently; loving, albeit sometimes annoying, family and some nice toys (new TV, cell phone, great CD and book collection; nice stereo, newer living room furniture) all of that -- there are times where that truly American sense of "hafta have" sinks its claws into me and brings out a longing for all those things that beckon from store shelves, television commercials and just seeing other people having them.

I feel like a kid in a department store being dragged through the aisles by a parent, pointing at things at whining, "But I want one, boo hoo hooo. Pleeeese?!.

Things I want:

an iPod

a new computer with a flat screen, where you can't hear the gears grinding as you log on or download a new program

a new desk for new computer

new carpeting in my downstairs

a set of golf clubs for my newfound joy of golfing (see post below)

piano lessons, and as a result, a piano or at the very least a keyboard. (See, I've wanted to take piano lessons for a very long time now, but either didn't have the time or the money or both.

a good quality mountain bike, as my $70 Sears special died a year ago and hasn't been replaced yet

a week long vacation at a beach resort

a convertible

a gainfully employed, nice looking, man in my age bracket with little to no baggage who doesn't still live with his parents

Okay, there's probably more if I gave it some serious thought, but then I'd just sound selfish and materialistic. hehehehe

Thing is, except for the convertible and beach resort vacation, the other things are not very impractical or unnecessary.

My problem -- lack of funds. (Well except for the man. Can't buy one of them at Macy's. Not sure what the problem is there. Maybe my requirements) Since buying the house, I've had to live on a budget.

Granted I'm more flexible with it at times then I should be, but I'm practical and disciplined enough to know that I need to keep my spending in line, and certain things, like iPods and new computers -- are just going to have to wait, so that I can continue to pay for necessary things -- like the mortgage and taxes and utilities and food.

And in retrospect, I think its better to want things. How boring if we always had whatever we wanted, whenever we wanted it. What would there be to look forward to? And besides, Chrismas is only a few months away! ;-)

But damn, I really do want an iPod now!